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Wednesday, September 28, 2011

The Conversation

     So I just had this conversation with one of my old HS classmates and I can tell you it was...strangely entertaining, surprising, and other words that uhh I can't think about.  For once I wish this would get feature JUST so I can see the comments.  It all started about my posts ranting about Facebook and how I'd rather have the original Facebook over all these "improvements".  The wall posts ended with him inviting me to hang out which is where this convo begins from the end of the wall posts and moves to the chat box.











     Alex 
  • I'm actually being serious though. Wanna come over and have a beer with me? My house is open, and I'm free tomorrow night

    • Lol I'm working and I still don't drink. But yeah we should hang out when I'm off lol.

    • Usually when I'm not working I'm at school :/

    • ah, I see

    • it's too bad, you're missing out on a great social lubricant

    • rofl

    • My personality is a good lubricant for social interactions.

    • well I haven't really hung out with you in person since high school, so I can't really say anything in response to that, but most people who don't drink say that, and most people who do drink, view the people that say that as misguided and missing out

    • Ehh

    • do you have a relative that was an alcoholic or something?

    • It's too bad I could care less what people think.

    • or do you just not like how it affects you?

    • No

    • I just don't have any interest in it.

    • you're missing out

    • And I don't need alcohol to socially interact or have fun.

    • none of us really need it

    • but that doesn't mean that it doesn't improve it

    • Depends on how you look at it.

    • You're on one side of the glass, looking in at the rest of us

    • and that's the only way you're going to see it if you keep that mentality

    • Hm the same could be said about anything else.

    • it could, and to that I say that it's a lot of fun to see what it's like on the other side of the glass

    • otherwise you just end up disdainful and unable to connect with people well

    • lol I've had no issues connecting with people so far.

    • I"m happy for you

    • I"m just saying, I feel like alcohol has been a massive improvement to my life

    • True, when dealt with responsibly, but I've never had the urge nor need for it.

    • doesn't mean it wouldn't help you in the right situation

    • I'm sure you've tried it before though, right?

    • have you gotten drunk before?

    • Nope. lol

    • then you're on the other side of the glass

    • and I really feel sorry for you

    • I could same the same for you. Someone on my side of the glass may say that you need alcohol to enhance a conversation or a party.

    • it's true. maybe I've come to use it as something of a crutch. but it's a super awesome crutch that makes me better than I was before in the right situation

    • and I still have the sober me to use when I please, which is still most situations that aren't parties or something like that

    • it's amazing how easy it is to approach a girl and strike up a conversation when you've had a few drinks

    • Then from my looking glass I'll say that whatever you use alcohol for I make up for in whatever I have. Whatever that may be. So like I said with all due respect it depends on how you look at it.

    • I can do that without it...lol.

    • well the majority of the reason I even say stuff like this is because of all your angry facebook posts

    • you seem so uptight

    • and reliant on online interaction

    • No I'm just blunt about how I feel. Just because no one else says it doesn't mean they aren't.

    • I know how you think it is

    • you just seem so disconnected

    • Lol I'm hardly uptight Alex. People that tried to troll me get mad themselves...I hardly get butthurt...

    • and that's fine

    • alcohol helps you not take yourself so seriously

    • loosens you up

    • allows you to connect with people

    • and it just seems to me like you've been lashing out at facebook because you have trouble connecting with people

    • you act so disdainful at all the fluffing that's going on on fb

    • and it just looks like you don't understand it

    • like really understand it

    • And so you conclude that just from my posts on Facebook.

    • yeah

    • yeah I do

    • everyone else is able to join the party

    • and all you can do is sit on the sidelines and criticize

    • Lol I do fine in real life. Connecting with people just walking about or buying coffee.

    • well I'm glad. Like i said, I haven't even seen you since high school, so I really can't comment on that part of your interaction. But from my viewpoint, it looks like you're really critical, and only somewhat related to that, a few drinks at your next party would do wonders for your disposition

    • Alcohol isn't a big deal. It's strange to see you raise it up on a pedestal as if it were the holy grail of socialization.

    • I've made friends from Japan to Australia to other States, from Germany to Singapore without the use of alcohol.

    • I think I'm doing okay.

    • how did you meet them?

    • Not like I get all worked up when my friend goes on vent or skype drunk and starts singing Christmas carols.

    • Contrary to what you think

    • half is from online socialization lol

    • the rest irl

    • alcohol humbles you

    • it shows you that you were never sitting on a horse above everyone

    • you're just like everyone else

    • Not really and I think I'll pull the bullshit card on that one ROFL. Weed humbles you Alex....

    • and it's amazing what feeling that can do for you

    • weed humbles me?

    • how so?

    • lol

    • I went to school with a lot of potheads

    • and I've seen more potheads

    • that are humble

    • than people who drink

    • hands down

    • I'll agree with that

    • lol see

    • although I think it's more just because it mellows you out

    • Other than what the chemicals are doing.

    • Regardless

    • and shows you things

    • Even when they're not high.

    • They're more humble than people who drink.

    • If they do both.

    • I find that they're more retarded when they drink than compared to when they smoke a blunt.

    • oh I'll agree with that

    • I often talk of complex shit when I'm high

    • with alcohol, I just get really talkative

    • which is really great for a party

    • Yeah but

    • Everyone reacts to alcohol differently

    • when you're high

    • you pretty much act the same

    • as any other high person

    • but how is that humbling?

    • Well

    • First off

    • Potheads aren't as anal as alcoholics. In my observations

    • lol

    • Alcoholics have more psychological problems than potheads.

    • Potheads are just fucking lazy.

    • no

    • potheads aren't lazy

    • lazy people tend to smoke pot

    • common misconception though

    • and yeah they aren't as anal

    • pot mellows you out

    • I've seen a lot of really smart (IQ) wise smoke a lot of pot.

    • shows you things

    • yeah but outside of being under the substance

    • They still aren't as uptight.

    • I think the substance has some effect on the outside character as well

    • and it tends to attract that type of character anyways

    • I attract all types of characters without any of that.

    • Former military

    • rednecks

    • ex gangsters

    • sexaholics

    • normal people

    • people that smoke a lot of weed

    • alcoholics

    • glad to hear it

    • you're still on the outside of the glass

    • unable to empathize


    • Hmm does it bother you that much? Why is it such a big deal for you? Everyone else I know that drinks is like, "It's whatever idc."

    • In my eyes there is no glass...actually.

    • Maybe for you there is.

    • lol

    • there's a lot of people that go overboard with it

    • and I'll agree, I'm not crazy about it normally

    • but in the right situation, it's exactly what was needed

    • weed is way better anyways

    • I just can't smoke right now, so I drink

    • lol

    • but yeah, it's whatever

    • Lol I don't need anything to talk to a girl....much less conversate.

    • but I still see a huge difference between those who drink and those who choose not to at all

    • Hm

    • Then explain to me

    • Why I don't see any difference and you do

    • heh

    • in everyone that I've seen that starts drinking, they end up having fantastic times and memories because they ended up doing things that they wouldn't have done if their guard was up

    • alcohol reduces the inhibitions

    • which means sometimes you'll do things you weren't necessarily okay with

    • which is part of the experience

    • lol

    • That's the alcohol replacing your personality...

    • no, that's the alcohol enhancing it

    • Unless someone really needs that because they're that socially uncreative and awkward...

    • reduces your inhibitions so deeper parts of your personality show that you'd otherwise hide

  • Well as you see from facebook
    • I don't hide much.

    • heh

    • And I'm definitely not the same person in hs.

    • in one respect

    • alright

    • well you're certainly not afraid to speak your mind

    • but you're always so serious

    • lol nope

    • oh

    • Haha you haven't seen the other side of me then.

    • apparently not

    • that should change

    • Already has.

    • Don't need anything for that

    • no, I meant that should change, as in I want to actually hang out with you again and see the other side of you

    • well

    • I don't know how you think of my personality but

    • I'm more of a typical Leo now

    • to put it in short.

    • I have no idea what that means


    • Ehh

    • I put absolutely no basis in astrology


    • Hm

    • I never used to either but

    • I can't deny it when my personality matches that.

    • And it's not biased since

    • It changed before I ever looked into it more.

    • when it matches I can't deny it and say it's coincidence. Though with some variation not all of it is true. The majority of it is though.

    • alright

    • astrology aside though, I still don't know what that means


    • arrogant blunt

    • extroverted obviously

    • some say natural talent for leadership

    • warm hearted

    • loyal

    • etc etc

    • blah blah

    • alright

    • that helps more

    • Graduating from hs was a changing time.

    • same her

    • Extremely pessimistic.

    • Now it's like the complete opposite.

    • I should be worried about a lot of things but I'm not.

    • lol

    • Roshanda is actually a lot more into it than I do.

    • right on

    • ah

    • yeah I know a few friends into it too

    • I read a bunch of them

    • they all say really general things

    • I felt like 80% of most of the descriptions could apply to me

    • and they all said different things

    • At one point I thought that.

    • But I feel like this is the real me

    • and coincidentally or not

    • it matches so

    • *shrugs*

    • well that's good

    • i mean if you ask Roe

    • There's things like cusps and stuff

    • going into the dates

    • you have certain traits taken from other signs

    • very slightly but

    • I don't look that far into it.

    • ah

    • cool cool

    • well anways

    • great conversation

    • I need some good debate like that ever once in awhile and I've been missing out lately

    • ikr

    • most people just get offended when I try to debate anything in depth

    • LOL

    • Oh man you don't even know.

    • I've developed a knack for trolling.

    • hahaha

    • well I think the thing I miss most is religious debate

    • I'm not an ass about it but if they want to head in that direction I can do it.

    • I used to always get that in high school

    • and now I never do

    • awesome

    • anyways though, I'm gonna head to bed

    • yeah lol

    • Night

    • goodnight


Thursday, March 24, 2011

All I Can Think About Is That Triple Core Processor...Man That Sounds Really Fucking Nerdy (<.< x)"

     LOL It's fucking 4:20am and I still haven't written this paper LOLOLOL.  All I've done was read on "late bloomers" on IQ, intelligence, geniuses, watched Nintendo medleys on Youtube, replied to a person on Facebook, ate leftover Mexican food, wasted time on Xanga, print out piano sheet music, sigh a lot, laugh, and that's about it.  I mean how can I write a career paper on a career I haven't decided on yet! Just makes me not want to write it even more.  Sometimes I just wish there was an easy button.  Yeah suck the fun out of exploring the depths of life but I just want to get to it already (-_- x)" I mean there must be some big thing floating around out there that I have to run into because I've done the opposite in my quest.  I haven't narrowed down my options...they've expanded (@_@ x).  Wtf... and having some old white lady who might as well be monotone as my professor won't get me inspired anytime soon either.  I'd rather have the in labor with twins small framed funny black lady back in class.  All honesty I'd rather not do the paper than bullshit a paper that I really don't have interest in, but I'm just going to do it anyways because I don't want to get anything less than an A in the class.  It's only career but I don't want to get anything less than an A after my debut back into college.  /facedesk

     I mean all I can think of right now is my custom desktop arriving tomorrow (morning hopefully).  Just makes me want to ditch and just sit at home till it arrives.  FACK.  I dunno.  Going to read my quantum physics book, I'm bored out of my God damn mind...the abstract will fix that.


Food for thought while I procrastinate on my paper


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

     I have to write a paper for Career.  I feel the procrastination creeping over my shoulder.  I can't imagine how much worse it will be when I'm actually taking the classes to get my degree for Japanese (@-@ x).


Saturday, March 19, 2011

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